Spring

Surprise! Money doesn't grow on trees. Most people don't even know why they feel they have to work. It has been 9 months since I got here...yup...having that conversation with her put me on thinking mode again~ *sighs* I haven't feel like this for a long time... All good things come to those that wait huh...it better be true... They keep telling me time will tell... don't worry but the waiting is the hardest part. 

You never know what is going to happen, you cannot truly plan your future. I keep saying to them tomorrow is another day, carpe diem. It could be worse, yeah the famous light at the end of the tunnel, after the rain comes the rainbow, every rose has its thorn, all of them. 

Now I feel it is hard to follow... I'll tell you, there are no words for emptiness. But I guess, this too shall pass.

Don't ask me why I'm writing in English, I don't know, I just feel like doing so. Maybe it is because I'm here now, does it make sense? 

I wish you could be with me forever. You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink. Home, what a nice word... sometimes I feel you can never go home again. Once you leave it, things will not be the same. You ain't seen nothing yet. Who told you life was easy? I think life is a bitch. There are always ups and downs, ta-da~ that's the mystery of life. 

Decisions, I always wonder if it was the right decision...my friend tells me, don't worry about it, you are gonna be fine, as long as you do what you like. I don't really regret anything but I just wonder. 

You are too mature for your age. Well, I'll tell you a secret, I'm not who you think I am.